Change its Good

Every time a day goes by I think, "Mmmm, that was good" or "so glad I'm here" even if something doesn't go peachy on my day over all the day was great!
I laughed so hard today, at one point I took a deep breath and as I went to exhale I busted out laughing again. What a wonder full feeling!! Laughing is great makes me feel great, and alot of time others follow whether they understand or not why I'm laughing they still laugh (mostly at me). I also don't care what it does to my face, when I get old....er and I look at me I can say I was happy those are laughing wrinkles. I laugh alot by myself too. We shouldn't make fun of those who we see driving in our cars singing or talking. At least they are happy. Although when I see the guy bouncing in his car singing and jamming, it dose make me laugh. It's great when people hand out there happiness with out caring other wise what someone thinks!

I've made alot of changes over the last two weeks, I have never felt better. A weight has been lifted off of me that I can not 100% explain. Except, I'm almost there, that place I was not to long ago, that amazing feeling you get with even doing nothing. But your happy so who cares.

I stop all the time and think about what others might of been thinking or feeling as they reacted to something. My feathers get ruffled and I generally want to jump, but usually stop to think. I over look alot of what folks say because I can't get past why you said that to me. I worry that to many people aren't present in their lives enough to stop and list to them selves when they talk or react. And I worry that your feelings are getting hurt because I was honest, or that you feel alone because I didn't do something for you, saying "no" is a big deal to me, if you are capable then it should always be yes, being lazy is constitute as not capable to help out. I don't want to leave this world knowing or thinking that i did it all for me or my family. There's lots of others out there that need me to complete them. I was thinking how amazing it would be if we could take everything back to those times in the 40's or 50's when people helped and borrowed sugar!! I wish my neighbors were more neighborly that I could ask to borrow sugar, or milk. But I often wonder if it's an imaginative thought I have of what the people where like back then, I know not everyone was but most people where friendlier! Example: I went to a store today two story store, that has LOTS of people running in and out of isles and standing in the middle of them or just stopping all of a sudden, so I bump this ladies elbow who happens to stop right in front of me and of course I was looking to my left and I turned put my hand on her elbow and said "oh I'm so sorry". I really was, no big deal we both were not watching where we were going. She gave me a yucky look!!!! I smiled and continued, but in my head I thought my goodness I apologized, why are you getting your feathers ruffled? seriously it's not necessary, maybe she had a bad day, maybe she was hurting, maybe she was grumpy cause so many people were running around. Fine I take all of that for you and I really am sorry. We pro tray our emotions on others expecting for them to understand. But they don't, I just wish more people would pay attention to them selves and the people around them. I pray for everyone and everything you go threw. That one day you will be able to take it all with a grain of salt and focus on the important things in life. the stress is lifted when we do these things, mine has for sure!

On to the next thing. Valentines day! What a day, every year of my life I haven't really paid much attention to the day or get upset because someone doesn't attack me with love things. It's a sweet day nonetheless but really we should celebrate love everyday. Okay so I go to work, and go about my day, my sweet husband calls me right before he goes to work, and we say sweet things to each other. I am almost home literally right around the corner and I get a text, " hey lover"......(i) "hey luv" I turn the corner at the same time and I laugh out loud........his trucks in our drive way! He had asked off a month before, he was standing on the porch in his pressd shirt and all nice and clean! I walk inside and he bought me flowers, had chocolate covered strawberries and wine, the last bottle from our honey moon, he had chilled it while I was at work! And of course a card. Ha omg, that's why I married you, how sweet of you to think of this. I had got him a card and box of chocolate covered fortune love cookies! That was fun!!! I got ready and he took us to dinner!! What a sweet heart! So it may not happen every year, but I loved that he did that!!

Spring is almost here I can smell it I'm ready for fishing and out door hiking!!